only this

It's late. I have been up working, when the house is quiet, on writerly things (starting THIRD DRAFT of edits. Yay!)

And now, I come to go to bed, and I cant turn off my mind. And the thing about Robin Williams. And I hate to sentimentalize on celebrity grief like this but, he was human, and suffering, and yet, some of those roles he gave us! Part of my childhood and young adult years, reflected in the titles, Popeye and Hook and Mrs. Doubtfire and Good Will Hunting and Dead Poet's Society, which still makes me cry.

O Captain, My Captain!

And, something about the fullish moon, just newly waning, and the thick clouds scuttling under it, like frightened crabs on the beach.

And this song, which I shared with my littles this week, and little man, in particular, who loved it. Rent, as in the Broadway show. A huge part of my 20s. I saw it on tour in our little city here and in London, while I was studying abroad. Sharing with the kids ("525,600 minutes", being little man's fav song) was like opening up a corner of me to them, unseen before.

And okay. This song is quite fatalistic. And NO, I don't believe in "no day but today" kind of living, forever, as a rule. But some days, in some epochs of life, all there is, is today. That is all there can be, for a period. And all there should be, rightly so.

So. Listen. (scroll down for the video) Listen to this amazing song. Seize it. Love your day. Live yourself a bangarang life.

No day, but today.


The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn

There is no future
There is no past
Thank God this moment's not the last

There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret-- or life is yours to miss.
No other road
No other way
No day but today

There's only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what is right
No other course
No other way
No day but today

I can't control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only hope
is just to be

There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today