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Tuesday, November 1, 2011

the big "C" word

Cancer. Not a word you want to hear ever, let alone in the midst of juggling two kids and a five week old baby.

Nevertheless.

Its not a big deal. Just skin cancer. Right? Not even the bad kind (Melanoma) just the medium kind that can only spread elsewhere if it grows and grows for years. Its only been maybe 6 months or a year. And its just one little spot. And they will cut it out. And I will go on with my life.

Except every weird mole will send me into a panic. And for the rest of my life I will have to go in to get checked out annually. Not a big deal. Its just ANOTHER THING.  You know?

I dont need another thing.

Unless its like winning the lottery. Or getting a book contract. Or buying a house.

And I hate to feel selfish to the universe but I feel like I am owed at this point. The grand cosmos owes me. Hard pregnancy. Hard labor. Now fucking cancer? Give me a break. Ridiculous. Stupid.

That is all I have to say about that.

Except. For God's sake pale skinned girls, don't lay out in the sun (as I did as a teenager in California) it is stupid. And for God's sake mommies, we slather up our children with sunscreen/sunblock and never do ourselves (me, every fricking summer). So, do each other a favor and rub each other down at the pool, the park, etc., okay?

Thanks.

Moving on....

5 comments:

  1. Yikes! Sorry to hear the news. I am fair skinned too, so I wouldn't be surprised to get the same news at some point!

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  2. it will just be another thing you will over come with fierce determination and then it will be added to the list of ways we young kids look up to you. love you.

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  3. As an Australian we are very accustomed to having yearly skin checks. Capital of the world and though we are not proud of it but we are proud that we also have the created the best technology in detecting and fighting it. Just had a spot on my nose "frozen" last month. Better to know and deal with the little sucker than ignore and pay the price down the track. Thinking of you!

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  4. I just saw this. I am sorry, Sara! I agree with you--you did not need to be handed ONE. MORE. THING. I will pray that you will be okay.

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